This morning I was in Meijer looking at Christmas lights for my drum for the parade on Friday night and also for some decorations for the office at work. I was browsing around the Christmas stuff and saw Christmas socks. And it made me kind of sad. What did Rachel want last year for Christmas? [...]
24Nov09
Christmas Socks
23Sep09
Let Myself Go
I’ve really let myself go since “the break up” (insert dramatic music) and this has really been proven by the fact that when I went to the doctor yesterday it appears that since I last saw him I’ve gained about 30 pounds(!!!!). I’m at the heaviest I’ve ever been in my life and realized yesterday [...]
12Sep09
False Hope and Sobriety
False hope is something I feel like I’ve been holding on to for a long time. That hope has been that Rachel and I will end up back together.
18Jun09
Breakthroughs
I’m the type of person that every once in a while I have to put my thoughts down in some way. For me, this is blogging. I really enjoy to sit down and write out what I’m thinking about something and put it out there. I’m a person who doesn’t like to hide his emotions, [...]
16Jun09
And It’s Over
Last night Rachel came over. We talked for about an hour and a half or so. I had some questions that needed some answers, and we just talked about everything that’s been going on recently really. She had been in denial of what she wanted for a while now, just about since I asked her [...]
31May09
One Month Later
As of Monday, it’ll be a month since Rachel and I broke up. To say that it’s been the hardest month of my life would probably be an understatement. Then again, I’m not entirely sure I can say that, but it would definitely rank in the top 5. Some of you may question why I [...]
22May09
Songs for the Dumped Part 2
After getting some feedback from some more friends and listening to a few more songs, I realized that I had missed a few great songs in the vein of great break up/love lost songs. So I’ve decided to post another entry revolving around the subject.
19May09
Songs for the Dumped
So I’ve been thinking a lot recently about break up songs. Not that I’ve been listening to a lot of them necessarily, but they have crossed my play list from time to time, such as this morning when I found myself playing “Song For the Dumped” by Ben Folds Five about three times on the [...]
Lately I’ve been deconstructing myself in an attempt to improve myself on several levels. To make myself a better and happier person, to gain skills that will help me professionally, and other improvements I need to make to help me on both fronts.
1May09
We’ll Meet Again
As a few of you know, and many of you don’t, Rachel and I have temporarily/potentially permanently called off our engagement.
