I don’t make New Years resolutions. I find them to be a little silly for people to say “Oh I’ll wait until the new year to better myself.” When they should take the notion to better themselves when they recognize the problem and take care of it then.
The other day as I was having lunch with my parents and went to say goodbye to my grandmother, I gave her a hug and told her I loved her. The thing I realized was that I don’t tell people often enough that I love them. That’s one thing that I’m going to try to do more often is just to express the love for the people that I care for more often. Seems simple enough for some, but for me it will be rather difficult. I don’t know why I’ve had such a problem with this in the past.
The other thing is to continue to remove negative influences from my life. 2009 was a really tough year, but I realize that in the end I had a lot of negative influences removed from my life. I grew apart from some friends, some good and some bad. I miss the good ones as our lives have different paths but realize that I am for the better that I lost the ones who’s negative energy continued to bring me down with them. Also the loss of my relationship with Rachel, as much as I hate to say it, was a good thing for me in the end as she was a negative force in my life toward the end of my relationship. At one point she had said that I had already made up my mind about several things that she needed to leave open for her. At the same time I began to realize that she had done the same. It was simple things at times, such as when I suggested that we have a garage/yard sale to put together money for our wedding her answer was an immediate and resounding “No.” It sounds silly, but stacked together with other times that don’t immediately come to mind it all makes sense to me. So continuing to remove the negative energy out of my life when I can is another thing I want to continue doing, whether it be internal or external.
Onto the music of the morning.
Essentially two long songs were my commute music this morning. And both reminded me of an old friend that I haven’t really talked to in a few years. We both loved The Mars Volta, and that was part of the reason for our friendship, but he also introduced me to Particle, the second band, and their album pretty much made up the soundtrack of a trip to the Atlanta area that I took to stay with his family over Spring Break.
The Mars Volta – The Drunkship of Lanterns
Particle – Launchpad (Live)
