I’ve been thinking about this post for a couple of weeks now and just now got around to having the time to sit down and write it, especially after I overheard someone last night (actually it was about 7am this morning) talking about single people “flaunting” their singleness and how much it annoyed her.

It got me thinking about how some people seem to think that you can’t possibly be happy if you’re single.

Well damn… I must be doing something wrong then…

I guess this mostly got me thinking this morning because I got an e-mail this morning from a young woman who got my e-mail address off of a dating website. She sounded very interesting and someone I might like to get to know. Intelligent, articulate, good heart. The thing is that right now I just don’t feel like I have the time to devote to someone else in my life because I think for the first time in my life I’m allowing myself to be selfish with my time and what I do with it.

I’m incredibly burned out on dating as that was going nowhere fast. Maybe this will change with some more time, but for the moment I’m just enjoying running myself ragged between all my various activities and don’t want to give any of it up. Some might say that I could be missing out on “the one” or something like that… But if it was meant to be, then it will be meant to be when I’m ready for it and have the time and energy to pursue it. Right now the apathy is high for me when it comes to dating and if I was going to do it at this point I’d only half ass it, and that’s not fair to me or them.

I’m enjoying some well deserved time to be selfish. Yes, the past few months have been “all about me” and honestly I wouldn’t have had it any other way. The people I have met and the adventures I have had are opening my eyes to new and wonderful possibilities for my life. The stories I will have to tell my children (and for them to grow tired of) of late nights playing board games, the characters I’ve created role playing, the stories I’ve heard and people I’ve gotten to know over some drums and playing with the greatest punk rock marching band that Lexington has ever seen will certainly bore them to tears by the 200th time that I’ve told them. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

It’s also funny to me how the things that I thought I wanted I’m not so sure I want them anymore, at least right now. I think I would have been happy if things had panned out like I had planned, but they didn’t and to further quote Atmosphere (which is where the subject line came from) “when life gives you lemons, you paint that shit gold”. Through it all I feel I can say with a certain amount of heartfelt honesty that I wouldn’t have it any other way.